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Jul. 19th, 2015

On Wings of Steel, chapter 5

Title: On Wings of Steel
Fandom: Batman
Chapter: 5/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG
Summary: angst, mild language, parenthood/children, violence
Summary: Before he was Robin, he was Dick Grayson, youthful ward of millionaire Bruce Wayne. Little does Dick know, however, that Bruce is leading a double life, one that repeatedly leaves Dick feeling left out. Sick and tired of being let down by the man he's coming to see as a father, Dick is determined to find out what his guardian is up to. Meanwhile, Batman is caught up in a game of wits with the Riddler, one that results in Dick becoming even more wrapped up in his guardian's secret life than Bruce ever wanted him to. [Prequel to the 1966 Batman television series.]
Word count: 26,948 and counting

Jul. 8th, 2015

On Wings of Steel, chapter 4

Title: On Wings of Steel
Fandom: Batman
Chapter: 4/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG
Summary: angst, mild language, parenthood/children, violence
Summary: Before he was Robin, he was Dick Grayson, youthful ward of millionaire Bruce Wayne. Little does Dick know, however, that Bruce is leading a double life, one that repeatedly leaves Dick feeling left out. Sick and tired of being let down by the man he's coming to see as a father, Dick is determined to find out what his guardian is up to. Meanwhile, Batman is caught up in a game of wits with the Riddler, one that results in Dick becoming even more wrapped up in his guardian's secret life than Bruce ever wanted him to. [Prequel to the 1966 Batman television series.]
Word count: 21,864 and counting

Apr. 28th, 2015

On Wings of Steel, chapter 3

Title: On Wings of Steel
Fandom: Batman
Chapter: 3/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG
Summary: angst, mild language, parenthood/children, violence
Summary: Before he was Robin, he was Dick Grayson, youthful ward of millionaire Bruce Wayne. Little does Dick know, however, that Bruce is leading a double life, one that repeatedly leaves Dick feeling left out. Sick and tired of being let down by the man he's coming to see as a father, Dick is determined to find out what his guardian is up to. Meanwhile, Batman is caught up in a game of wits with the Riddler, one that results in Dick becoming even more wrapped up in his guardian's secret life than Bruce ever wanted him to. [Prequel to the 1966 Batman television series.]
Word count: 16,839 and counting

Apr. 15th, 2015

On Wings of Steel, chapter 2

Title: On Wings of Steel
Fandom: Batman
Chapter: 2/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG
Summary: angst, mild language, parenthood/children, violence
Summary: Before he was Robin, he was Dick Grayson, youthful ward of millionaire Bruce Wayne. Little does Dick know, however, that Bruce is leading a double life, one that repeatedly leaves Dick feeling left out. Sick and tired of being let down by the man he's coming to see as a father, Dick is determined to find out what his guardian is up to. Meanwhile, Batman is caught up in a game of wits with the Riddler, one that results in Dick becoming even more wrapped up in his guardian's secret life than Bruce ever wanted him to. [Based on the 1966 Batman television series.]
Word count: 11,141 and counting

Apr. 8th, 2015

On Wings of Steel, chapter 1

Title: On Wings of Steel
Fandom: Batman
Chapter: 1/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG
Summary: angst, mild language, parenthood/children, violence
Summary: Before he was Robin, he was Dick Grayson, youthful ward of millionaire Bruce Wayne. Little does Dick know, however, that Bruce is leading a double life, one that repeatedly leaves Dick feeling left out. Sick and tired of being let down by the man he's coming to see as a father, Dick is determined to find out what his guardian is up to. Meanwhile, Batman is caught up in a game of wits with the Riddler, one that results in Dick becoming even more wrapped up in his guardian's secret life than Bruce ever wanted him to. [Based on the 1966 Batman television series.]
Word count: 5,392 and counting

Dec. 22nd, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 11

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 11/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 66,219 and counting

Dec. 8th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 10

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 10/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 58,535 and counting

Dec. 4th, 2013

You Found Me

Title: You Found Me
Chapter: 1/1
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG
Summary: Fourteen months after the deaths of James and Lily, Sirius and Remus have let the stress of the situation drive them apart. They haven’t spoken in almost as long, but can a few well-placed words from Sirius bring them back together?
Word count: ~8,500

Nov. 15th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 9

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 9/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 52,574 and counting

Nov. 8th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 8

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 8/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 44,783 and counting

Nov. 3rd, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 7

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 7/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 38,923 and counting

May. 7th, 2013

It's a mixture of relief, perseverance, and caffeine...and just a little touch of going mad

On the morning of April 26th at approximately 1:12 AM, I successfully completeled my sixth attempt at NaNoWriMo. I wasn't even sure I wanted to do it this month. I think I say that before every NaNo, but I was going to wait until Camp's second event in June. But I eventually just decided to do it this month instead, and I think it ended up being the best thing for me.

April is not an easy month for me as I'm sure most of you are aware. Especially since my mum passed away nearly four years ago this June, April tends to be the month that I think of her the most. Her birthday was in April, so it makes me think of all the birthdays she had and what we did for them, and then it really hits home that I won't celebrate anymore birthdays with her again. More over, my grandmother's and my brother's birthdays were both in April who have both passed away as well, and it just makes this a rough month overall.

But as I said, I think that choosing to do NaNo during April turned out to be the best thing for me. It didn't really give me much time at all to think about those sorts of things. I was too caught up in my novel and other things that I had to get done at the same time, and it just really kept my mind occupied at a time when I really needed it.

Of course, now that leaves me with an empty-feeling May. In the past, I think I normally got most of negative feelings out in April, but since I wasn't able to do that this year, it seems like they're all hitting me now. Especially since Mother's Day is coming up here on the twelfth, and I think it's really affecting me much more than it has in the past. Much more than I've been letting on.

I've kind of only just now realized how hard it is to see and hear Mother's Day commercials this year. Those stupid advertisements that start with a line like, "What are you getting your mother for Mother's Day this year?" and then offer some options. I want to scream, "Nothing!" I can't get her anything, because she's dead.

I don't know why these things are wearing on me much more so than in previous years other than, like I said, I haven't really been thinking about them all that much lately. These things come in waves sometimes, I guess, and begin rising up again just when you think you've seen the last of them. I haven't really thought about my mum very much lately, at least not like this, and I was really wasn't expecting it to come back and hit me like this.

I just can't believe it's been almost four years. Where does the time go? Has it really been that long since I've seen my mother and talked to her? Why does time seem to go so fast now that I'm older? When I was younger, I remember thinking that four year seemed like an eternity. Now it seems like the blink of an eye.

Not long ago, I was watching a video by one of my favorite internet personalities, the Angry Video Game Nerd. He's around my age, and he was talking about some movies he made when he was a child. He said, "That was back when three years actually felt like three years. Now, to me, three years feels like three minutes. Time flies faster than it used to." That's exactly how I feel.

Did anyone else's parents ever tell you not to wish you were older, because once you actually got to be older, you'd be wishing you were young again? I never quite believed them. I think we're all often in a hurry to grow up, because you get to do more things when you get older. Not that I want to be a child again, but sometimes I wish for that time when things seemed simpler. When all I had to worry about was finishing my homework and finding a ride to my friend's house.

I'm only thirty-three years old. I'm not old by any means of the imagination (except maybe to very young children, because I remember thinking how ancient my older sister seemed at thirty-three). That being said, I feel old sometimes. I come home from work feeling completely worn out, and I basically feel like I'm living for my next day off sometimes. I wish I had the energy I had ten or twenty years ago. When I could stay up until all hours of the night and not be a zombie the next morning.

Maybe it's because I've been through a whole hell of a lot for only thirty-three damn years. It makes me feel much older than I really am. Usually, it doesn't get to me. I'm good at looking on the bright side and being thankful for what I have. But other times, like now, it hits me. Time is fleeting, and I wish it wasn't. But that's life, isn't it?

Apr. 30th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 6

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 6/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 33,811 and counting

Apr. 16th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 5

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 5/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 27,958 and counting

Apr. 15th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 4

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 4/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 21,612 and counting

Apr. 8th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 3

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 3/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 9,156 and counting

Apr. 5th, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 2

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 2/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 9,156 and counting

Apr. 2nd, 2013

Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, chapter 1

Title: Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces
Chapter: 1/?
Author: SiriuslyLupin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Despite the increasingly worrisome Death Eater situation, Harry Potter finally feels as if things for his family are falling into place. Everyone is healthy and happy, something it seems they haven't been for a very long time. That, however, is about to change when the mother-in-law he's never met turns up out of nowhere. Harry's wife, Laine is completely caught off guard by the mother she hasn't seen in over twenty years, and her entire world is about to be turned upside down.
Word count: 3,617 and counting

Mar. 26th, 2013

Let's all go to camp - Camp NaNoWriMo!

On April first, I will be beginning my sixth attempt at NaNoWriMo. I wasn't going to do it at first. They're holding Camp in both April and July this year, and I was going to wait until the second one, because this is a summer event to me (it always previously took place in June, July, or August). But [info]allyear_sprints is turning it into a Harry Potter related event this time with everybody sorted into houses, and I can't miss out on that. I ended up signing up for Hufflepuff house for it, because more and more, I'm coming to identify that as my house. Who would have thought?

I'm really rather excited about this, and I'll be starting on my story Love Isn't Perfect 4: Missing Pieces, something I've had planned for a very long time. I wasn't planning on starting on that so soon. I had a lot of other stories I wanted to work on first, but all of a sudden, inspiration seemed to hit me for it, so I'm going to put that to good use next month. I'm using these days to start plotting out some of the actual scenes, but I can't wait to actually get it underway.

And when I say I'm plotting out some of the scenes, I don't mean in any kind of detail. I'm a pantser, someone that writes by the seat of my pants. I have a couple of main ideas in mind for the story, but I do not plan. My idea of plotting is to talk through some of the conversations that will be taking place. I keep my stories mainly in my head, but somewhere between there and the Word file, they grow into monsters and take on a life of their own. Don't ask me how or why.

I need this. I get so damn lazy when I don't have a reason to write, and NaNoWriMo really gives me a much-needed goal and drive to get things done. And there's just something about the sense of community that really inspires me to want to do it. It's so much fun when you have an entire group working towards the same goal, and [info]allyear_sprints always puts together a lot of fun writing competitions to take part in.

I can't believe this'll be my sixth time. This is just becoming something I feel the urge, the need to do. I can't let a NaNoWriMo event pass me by without giving it a go, and I can't imagine ever not wanting to do it. Because I know I'll come out of it with many more words than I had when I went into it. Even if I don't complete the challenge, that's something to be proud of - just the decision to try.

Feb. 12th, 2013

Happy birthday, sis!

It is absolutely amazing to me that I'm able to wish you a happy birthday again. One year ago, I remember sitting here at the computer at midnight, wishing I could talk to you, because not being able to wish you a happy birthday when the day turned to February twelfth felt so wrong. I compulsively kept going to my IM window, almost expecting your name to be there like nothing had happened, being able to click on it and type, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

We've done this for almost a decade - wished each other a happy birthday at midnight. I couldn't believe that for the first time in eight years, I wouldn't be able to. I wondered if you thought about me on that day. If you missed me wishing you a happy birthday at all. If maybe you turned on your computer and wished for that happy birthday IM from me. I hoped you did miss it, because I desperately did, but the cynical part of me didn't think it was possible.

But here we are. Of course I had to get on at midnight tonight to send you that IM. It's a tradition for us, one that I missed, so I couldn't let another birthday pass for you without doing so. Last year, I didn't think I'd ever be able to do so again, so how wonderful it was to prove that I was wrong.

Jesus, I was wrong. Little did I know we were both feeling so many of the same things - the same thoughts, the same worries, the same fears. Whenever I heard Taylor Swift's Back to December, the line, "When your birthday passed and I didn't call," got to me so much. And not just that song, but so many others. Way too many to count. And I came to find out that you listened to these songs too and thought of me. So many of the same songs. What are the chances? But I guess it's a twin thing.

I'm never going to let another birthday pass for you without those two little words. Once during our friendship was enough for a lifetime. So happy birthday. I was actually so excited for it this year, since I could tell you that. Whenever someone at work mentioned Tuesday or February twelfth this week, I kept saying, "That's my best friend's birthday!" I think they're probably sick of it.

I missed you so much during the year that we weren't talking, and I still can't get over how things worked out. That you missed me too. That you wanted to talk to me too, but you were afraid. That you weren't sure how such an action would be received. Again, twins.

I think about that a lot now - the twin thing. I keep thinking about how twins often feel what the other one is feeling, even when they're separated and have no idea what's going on with the other. That couldn't have been more true than during our year apart. I wonder how much of what we were feeling was our own and how much of it was from the other.

I love you, and I'm so grateful to have you in my life again and to be able to tell you so. I hope you have the bestest birthday ever *huggles tightly*

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